This person was one of the people I would run to if I had problems or even if I was just having the blues. In the past, I repeatedly trusted all the wrong people.
We were very close and this person knew almost all of my deepest and darkest secrets.
He once promised to give evidence in favour of one of his friends but when time came, he backed out of his promise. He was fined and the magistrate sentenced him to one month’s simple imprisonment, with a fine of Rs.
He is very quarrelsome and picks up a quarrel with everybody over trifles. He does not extend a helping hand even to his relatives and friends in trouble. He cuts jokes with everybody, in season and out of season. He was caught by the train ticket examiner at Ambala.
Looking at his face alone is enough to make my resentment and repugnance arise. He also fights with people who arguing his opinion.
Every time anybody mentioned his name in front of me, I can feel my blood in my tiny veins boiling like hot boiling water. Although he has all the thing he wants, yet he asking me to lend pencils and eraser if I refuse to give him,he will pinch me up and give me a warning don’t report to teacher.I’ve never really hated anybody before, except for him.He seems to have all the reasons and causes to spark my hatred and disgust towards him. We cannot be friendly with all the people we came to meet. The person I dislike most is Azman, who is my classmate since from form 1. While he left alone,he will hide people school uniform and this will cause students fight with him. Sometimes,when we have our Pendidikan Jasmani,he will giving a reason to teacher that he is having stomach ache.Even though we know ourselves better than anyone else, writing about yourself is hard work!When applying for scholarships or college, questions that force us to analyze ourselves come up all the time in all different forms…and they often leave us stumped!Beside, his oily and sweated body adds up to the long list of why anybody should hate him. He sweats at all times and that makes him smells like a rotten meat.I still remember, I once sat beside him in the Biology lab, and the last thing I know, I disgorged and vomit the whole morning. When I transferred colleges three years ago, I vowed to myself that I would not let anybody run me over ever again. It’s so frustrating that it took me almost four years to learn how to trust people again and just when I broke down my walls, shit happened once again. It’s not easy to always have dark thoughts every minute of every day. It’s not easy to have doubts about people because you keep comparing them with people from your past. Every time I see or even think about this person, I just feel so much anger and so much disappointment. I’m not saying I didn’t make mistakes, because I did.I’m not mad at this person because of how they betrayed me, I’m just mad because I did nothing bad to this person and yet I ended up being betrayed. It’s not easy to spend years trying to trash your insecurities and boost your self-esteem only to have it experience ground zero. I’m just so angry because I thought (s)he was a better person than me.